recent thoughts

february 7th @ 1:00pm i got a call from brandon, and i picked up. "----- and ----- got into a car accident last night," - brandon in my...

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my flaws — i’m hella reactive sometimes. if i hear something i disagree with or something that hits my ego, i instantly get emotional and defensive. like i feel attacked and i wanna respond right away. i need to chill on that. instead of protecting my ego, i need to just listen, take it in, and reflect. not everything is an attack. i’m also way too competitive. i turn everything into a competition, even the smallest shit. i need to start doing things for me , not for validati

abundance of options after graduating. this is supposed to be a good thing. your world becomes your oyster and for the first time, you actually get to choose what path you take. that alone is a privilege. i know most people in the world don’t get this opportunity. this is literally what my parents came to america for. now it’s my turn to decide what i do with it. having unlimited choices is fucking scary. my entire life had structure. 17 years of school. one path. even colleg

things i accomplished in 2025: i graduated finished my internship at comcast got an offer from nbcuniversal as a data engineer started working at kruiz and helped launch the app + raise a lot of moolah things that happened in 2025: my last real goodbye to college. my last akpsi mixer at ucr, my college birthday party at the mu house — all the final “college” moments. the saddest part of the year: my brother, darien, passed away. i went to his funeral and helped his parents cr