may 2026
this month was about appreciating chapters as they come to an end.
a lot of it was spent reflecting on experiences, opportunities, and people that have been a part of my life these past few years and realizing how much they've helped me grow. it's easy to always focus on what's next, but this month reminded me to appreciate what is and what was. as this chapter of my life comes to an end, i've found myself learning that moving on doesn't mean leaving everything behind. some chapters end, but the relationships and memories from them can still remain.
it was also nice to slow down and enjoy life without the usual stresses of school, work, and adult responsibilities. i got to travel to michigan for a wedding, explore la on my own while apartment hunting, and eat a lot of good food along the way.
most importantly, i got to spend a lot of time with family. probably more than i have in a long time. with me moving out soon and starting a new chapter, i've found myself appreciating a lot of the little moments and conversations that i normally take for granted.
just enjoying the present and making the most of this time before everything starts moving again.
excited for what's next, but grateful for where i am right now.
april 2026
this month feels like a shift inward, less about doing more and more about moving with intention and depth.
i’ve reconnected with an old friend, made a few new ones, started playing pickleball, and went to my first ever boxing class. i’ve also been getting better at having real conversations, asking the right questions, getting people to think, and actually understanding what’s behind what they’re saying. i'm learning from those around me and using their experiences to enhance my values, thoughts, and opinions.
at the same time, i’ve been more introspective, thinking about who i am, what i feel, and the internal battles i struggle with identifying. i’ve been diving into characters and their psychologies, seeing parts of myself in their struggles, which has made me more empathetic and aware.
i’ve spent more weekends alone, building the habit of writing and getting into stoicism, shifting my mindset toward developing my character instead of chasing things like money, lust, fame, or fortune.
at end of this month, i went back to socal to meet with some friends. felt like old times again.
i shared all of the new things i learned about life + philosophy + all the things i learned from being alone, and my friends have listened with an open ear. i love how they understand the value in what i've been learning and are down to grow and approach this "leveled up" way of life with me.
however, some friends may be left behind. and that's okay. because at the end of the day, i want to be surrounded around people who are open minded and looking to grow.
